Either I feel like I can’t breathe or I feel like I’m breathing too hard…If I don’t express myself I feel as though I’m barely breathing at all! I’m getting pushed and pulled in so many directions and from so many directions! I can only do so much people. And no matter what I say or do “I’m damned if I do damned if I don’t!” What do you want from me? If I express myself I’m wrong, if I hold it in I’m wrong…what’s right? I mean what’s right for ME, NOT EVERYONE ELSE? Give me a break while I’m trying to straighten out my life and worry about myself, because if I don’t do that then I’m useless to all of you! And I’ll handle things the way I see fit for the moment LIKE IT OR NOT! I’m doing the best I can and that’s all that matters!